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Tuesday, February 17, 2015

history



A third of his life left out in a gap
Sailing is on a power boat
the second wife cut
nonexistent
with the other women, her friend, sitting by his side, always smiling,
in the pictures that mean forever
It was good to remember my connection to his middle third

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Grief


January 16th is Brian's birthday. Brian my little brother 18 months younger was killed on Vashon Island when he was 11. I told the story before. My kitty went missing on his birthday. Pauly. a Hemingway Cat. The next day, I found her, dead. I heard cats in my head for a day. Not only her quiet mew, but my other cats, who have made the passage from this world through the veil. The veil was thin that day, It seemed like a portal had sucked her up and spit her out where I could see her the place where I didn't see her the day before. And all death is merged with these tears. This heart spasms and chokes letting the world's grief show me where I still can find her. Where she remains a part of me.

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Let it Stand




I've not had the nerve or impetuous to check KS. The words in my head are 'Let it Stand'
so I am avoiding even checking my email. How mature is that? Fear takes many forms.

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

zombies


I am studying Seth Speaks It talks about those infinity points that I have been seeing and exploring in my meditations. Fascinating to think about.+Especially, in this world, at this time. Weaving the highest possibility points into these days of the Grand, grand cross seems to be the ticket here. We just need to find out how to discern our emotions and where our thoughts are coming from (others or our true self? reaction or decision?) so we know which way to go.