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Saturday, December 27, 2014

Two laptops down

This took me hours of fiddling and waiting for the page to load. I want to scream and throw things.

Sunday, December 21, 2014

what we all should know

The measure of Maat

How much did we rob from this world without regard?
How much did we add?

Saturday, December 20, 2014


We are taught to stay away from the depths of our feelings
Dangerous emotions that can swallow you blind

the thorn the knife the blister
knife in the back oooo
our tribal way to force uniformity
the callapse of our wild passion
/We bleed and our masters drink

Friday, December 19, 2014




If my words did glow with the gold of sunshine
And my tunes were played on the harp unstrung,
Would you hear my voice come through the music?
Would you hold it near as it were your own?

It's a hand-me-down, the thoughts are broken,
Perhaps they're better left unsung.
I don't know, don't really care
Let there be songs to fill the air.

Ripple in still water,
When there is no pebble tossed,
Nor wind to blow.

Reach out your hand if your cup be empty,
If your cup is full may it be again,
Let it be known there is a fountain,
That was not made by the hands of men.

There is a road, no simple highway,
Between the dawn and the dark of night,
And if you go no one may follow,
That path is for your steps alone.

Ripple in still water,
When there is no pebble tossed,
Nor wind to blow.

You, who choose to lead, must follow
But if you fall you fall alone.
If you should stand then who's to guide you?
If I knew the way I would take you home.

La dee da da da,
La da da da da,

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Chiron Mars

Tuesday, December 16, 2014


Question of the day #3 – How do I know my intentions? Clue: beats me?

Captain Beefheart Upon my MY OH MY

Part of the reason why I am a bad speller
A terrible speller
A dumb, stupid, girl
Is that I am supposed to not even try to be perfect instead, to be, somehow – someday- be all the way in to this game of who I am.
As I swerve towards my creativity, I feel the glimpse of buoyant effervescence
No, it’s not a happy face plastered on for someone else, instead, I feel that feeling of this is who I am. Like when God saw the new creation and said that it was good. A Norwegian astrologer Sol Jonnason said
that the Leo influence thinks its blaspheme not be who you were given to be. She agreed, I think she is right.

In our culture, we are not supposed to be our big selves- oh no; Stand in line, sit down, shut up, don’t laugh and don’t smile because they will think you’re high or worse, crazy. Here take this pill and you will never be accused of being high.
There have been suicides in my peripheral, I hadn't seen or talked to either of them in a couple years. So, I am thinking about the lost, amazing potentialities that were in both of them. They must have felt overwhelmed by life. Both wounded and sensitive. One an amazing intuitive. Then I get to, do I ever accept a suicide? The answer is no, probably because it is beyond my comprehension.

I know how easy it is to hide what’s in front of my eyes. An illness-Once, I saw an xray of a ghost like pelvis and forgot my horror, the next moment. How dire that image was. I forgot it in next moment probably because I wouldn’t have been able to face him if I had remembered the image that I saw.
John Trudell Mining Minds
Denial: a human double edge sword.
We are trained to be zombies to our own self.

Monday, December 15, 2014

Over and over again

Question of the day number 2: How do I know if I am a zombie too?
It’s obvious, in some aspects of my life, I have zombie like traits,
Clue:’ Don’t make me look!’ , she screamed

Saturday, December 13, 2014

Why I am doingI kickstarter

Matthew 24:43 But know this, that if the goodman of the house had known in what watch the thief would come, he would have watched, and would not have suffered his house to be broken up.

sums up the games motive

Friday, December 12, 2014

I am still kicking

Long as I can see the light... Creedance Clearwater
I am not going to look today I need to center and dance. Had weird goings on with internet and eyes on me my eyes on them. So I a I'm in a ranting mood. Cloud thundering mood. here are my thoughts today.
A treatise on The Constitution of the United States of America:
It is the rudder of our country. An oath to uphold the Constitution is the most sacred oath to this nation. The Constitution stands above all laws, and that the first amendment i s continually violated by gag orders and oaths to gag -IS a set up for fascism, and that is vile. Anyone who has taken the Oath to defend the constitution and then ignores it, is complicit and at fault for this Nation's fall from greatness.
v For what its worth Buffalo Springfield

question of the day. Does a Zombie know its a Zombie? clue: 'I think not'.


Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Sunday, December 7, 2014

Thursday, December 4, 2014

this aint no party this aint no disco

The CIA project (self) prophecy

whistleblower world bank model of game

Monday, December 1, 2014

Past beginning repeat

Two spirit guides looking into a bowl of water or crystal
tall beings with shimmering robes and an ethereal light around them. Song playing beginning stance of ”what if God was One of Us?” Hubble Slides of screen sparkles Maybe strobe lites set above and below.

Narrator: The realms of mind How many levels are there?
How many dimensions are in one breath of ones life. How many dimensions are beyond the grasp of our senses but they are never beyond our imagination.

11:24 minutes in I see a stage with the three fates + An Elvis look a-like and cheerier colors w/, of coarse, sparkles and orbs.
Elvis is a Mascot of the Game for-sure.

Look what I found today... watch the hands and listen to the background music I actually am not enjoying the background music... I ve read all the passages and might argue with this but game wise palyed with

I had to turn off the sound