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Friday, September 30, 2011

Interstate 5- heading south from Mount Vernon

My daughter just called " I almost died!" A big pick-up truck moved into her lane almost on top of her but she swerved and spun out on I five around nine pm tonight. She was heading to Olympia.

Am I supposed to get the description of the fn truck? I am now freaking out - again.

Do I warn my children or am I over the rainbow?




Rebellion (Lies) Lyrics




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Sleeping is giving in,
no matter what the time is.
Sleeping is giving in,
so lift those heavy eyelids.

People say that you'll die
faster than without water.
But we know it's just a lie,
scare your son, scare your daughter.

People say that your dreams
are the only things that save ya.
Come on baby in our dreams,
we can live on misbehavior.

Every time you close your eyes
Lies, lies!
Every time you close your eyes
Lies, lies!
Every time you close your eyes
Lies, lies!
Every time you close your eyes
Lies, lies!
Every time you close your eyes
Every time you close your eyes
Every time you close your eyes
Every time you close your eyes

People try and hide the night
underneath the covers.
People try and hide the light
underneath the covers.

Come on hide your lovers underneath the covers
come on hide your lovers
underneath the covers.

Hidin' from your brothers
underneath the covers,
come on hide your lovers
underneath the covers.

People say that you'll die
faster than without water,
but we know it's just a lie,
scare your son, scare your daughter,
Scare your son, scare your daughter.
Scare your son, scare your daughter.

Now here's the sun, it's alright!
(Lies, lies!)
Now here's the moon, it's alright!
(Lies, lies!)
Now here's the sun, it's alright!
(Lies, lies!)
Now here's the moon it's alright
(Lies, lies!)

Every time you close your eyes
Lies, lies!
Every time you close your eyes
Lies, lies!
Every time you close your eyes
Lies, lies!
Every time you close your eyes
Lies, lies!

Every time you close your eyes

Every time you close your eyes

Every time you close your eyes

Lies, lies!

new discovery- this is the day


switched to this 2011 2 cap new moon Christmas eve


Friday, September 23, 2011

Arcade fire Wake up




Wake Up Lyrics
Artist(Band):The Arcade Fire

Somethin' filled up
my heart with nothin',
someone told me not to cry.

But now that I'm older,
my heart's colder,
and I can see that it's a lie.

Children wake up,
hold your mistake up,
before they turn the summer into dust.

If the children don't grow up,
our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.
We're just a million little gods causin' rain storms turnin' every good thing to
rust.

I guess we'll just have to adjust.

With my lightnin' bolts a glowin'
I can see where I am goin' to be
when the reaper he reaches and touches my hand.

With my lightnin' bolts a glowin'
I can see where I am goin’
With my lightnin' bolts a glowin'
I can see where I am, go-go, where I am

You'd better look out below

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Saturday, September 10, 2011



my biggest struggle is needing validation from others/
from the grocery store checker to my clients.
When I try to be loved, it stops the flow.
the free flow. when I am trying to get
people to approve of me, I contract because
I am not approving of myself.
I submit to the "like me - please?" game.

I am still confused about the worry that turns into
I need to control the other person, ie my kids.
this girl me right here is lit up on the worry mode. A breather today. nice. thanks
someone. the spa was slow. odd energy within my body. like lightning, in spits and pauses and fatigue. Denial of what i really feel. the heart., with a spark of ecstatic joy for a half of breath. yee haw coyboys yee haw. I wonder what I mean. It just wanted to come out. mcchala lions den = what are u doing in my space? I am water wave length i feel the ripples.
why do I write this? I wonder?
The sun is almost down
the dog barks. there is always a story with drama or as I prefer, a comedy.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Discernment


Discernment
someone tries to mess with the lives of others
thinken "its gonna be sooo e z"
Thinken its in the bag -"man".

that ole 'in God we trust' the bribe
God is in the money they say in the back of their cortex.
They know nothing about the truth of the matter
only other peoples thoughts going through their heads
only programming
and they think that China has got it bad. We are on the brink
of the old model of Empire. Hitler.s words have been studied and synthesized
the psychopaths rule the day. My two cues of that fact are chemtrails and paperless
voting machines.
.....................................................................................

I have never met a soldier that I didn't like.
and that is the truth. something about their hearts and their courage
puts them a level above, but still I want to whisper, don't break your heart's law, Do what is right and merciful. You will be protected.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

idea


I'll start a church of the Sacrament

the plant and animal kingdom are seen as sacred companions Creations co creators given to us by the I Am that I Am . All is sacred. Hemp is seen as the plant in Revelations that heals all the nations.

Trying not to look at the big picture


Hansen football player at Eastern Oregon

So, for me trying to ignore the big world and focus on my own energetics
has been like part of my energy is being smothered. Like a beach fire with sand and water thrown on top of it. Still hot deep down but don't know where to let the flame rise to.

My son, Forrest, still dizzy. gets nauseous when he moves his head. Under-sheriff
Zerby said that Deputy Gardner (who should have been taken off the case for screwing up the initial (when the kid punched Forrest) interview and for spreading (Mac's dispatch) rumors that Forrest had crashed on a bike (he had no scrapes and had an occipital fracture along with three breaks of his left orbital cavity) at the skate park) supposedly interviewed Hansen (the guy who punched Forrest) on Orcas Island a couple days ago. The Kid should have already been in Oregon because he goes to Western Oregon and plays football so I have to wonder who Gardner talked to? I can't help but classify Gardner as a liar- which pisses me off - big time. I hate that lying is the culture of law enforcement these days. Good golly- when I was a kid, we looked up to officers for their integrity.- Jacob Hansen admitted that he hit him but said it was because he felt threatened. The Prosecutors office has it now and is deciding what to do with it. Jacob Hansen had hit someone (LONDON) at the fair last year. I feel like I am constantly dodging trucks and U turn cars. I AM letting go of my fear which was lit and still is lingering in my left lower quadrant of my torso. I wake up with nightmares and want to sleep downstairs on the couch so I can hear if Forrest needs me. He put an end to that.



Chiron - the wounded healer is sparing with Jupiter in my chart.

Monday, September 5, 2011

aspen leaves -- turn with the wind



I realized how easy i am to manipulate because of my flash point.
So I got to learn fast
I dream of walking on a cliff of ice
with friends leading the way
I am safe.
My family is as safe as safe as anyone on this planet.
Its a race it would seem.
a game, with loaded dice... how to win? or can it be double or nothing?
I aint gonna play that game baby no I will not. Free will baby or did you forget the small print?

Saturday, September 3, 2011

feeling lighter than was

intense times times ten

Friday, September 2, 2011

back to 'the Wall'




trying to change my head - meaning my thinking- leads me to 'the Wall'
attempt at accident with me seems ridicules but it has happened before I started backing up and dweeb with the pick up races back behind me I ask why would they do that besides matriculation? These contractor / government hybrids (which I will hence forth call dweebs) can do anything they want to do. This guy - I followed- parked down from the library in the condo lot where Janine Lindie lives. I am pissed at this seeming attempt to trap me. since ,my anger feels so strong intuitionally I think I am right and not just being paranoid......

back to 'the Wal

Thursday, September 1, 2011

sometimes i salute the wrong people

one of the all times