Tell of the battle between the veil
Oft we came to the cliff to look for the others, thinking that only they could save us.
I stood alone stationed on the green throne.
forgetting that no one could stand the rear guard that night. This night I was alone in a darkness of which no star shone
Only I
alone
with the forces that seemed to be screaming of my many blunders
screaming of destruction and blame.
How could I go on?"
All that I am crumbles to the Earth.
Not knowing that my task is the task at hand,that relief is in unbinding the chains of self loathing.
But how?
there is so much that I had left undone
The Darkness of the Green Throne like deep cold water moving from an unknown direction
Nothing remained to set my bearings. (Was I there at all?) The Raiders came. Green Eyed with red pupils gleaming in their invisible heads. The attack was theirs . I had no defense except to shatter into many domains.
My task now, is to gather from a thousand thousand places the essence that was protected by the collapse.
written in my journal on - December 1, 2012
